Whining rant. Don't take it too seriously.
Sep. 9th, 2003 01:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sethrakWell, as those of you who've friended my Tom already know, he's scheduled to be deployed. For four months. ;_;
On the one hand, where he's going is a lot better than some of the slots he could have been sent to. It's a really good job, where he'll be doing something useful, not fiddling around with the Air Pulse, feeling stale and wanting to go Bun-Bun on his co-workers. On the other hand.... it's **four months**. During the holidays, too. I was really looking forward to our first Christmas together as a couple. And going out with him somewhere for New Year's. I haven't had a boyfriend - at least, one who was in dating distance for that day - on New Year's Eve ever. He's going to be gone for his birthday, Valentine's Day, and quite possibly my birthday too. We're going to be separated only three months after we moved in together, damn it. I knew he'd have to get deployed eventually.... but.... Well, damn.... I didn't think it would come so soon. I had gotten used to the comfort and joy of having him around all the time.
It could be worse. He could be going somewhere really nasty. I could be spending those four months alone. Instead, we're closing up the apartment, and I'm going to go live with his sister Stephanie. She's a very cool girl. I haven't met her yet - probably in October, when we visit his folks for his Dad's birthday. But we've emailed each other a few times, and we talk in IMs a lot more than Tom talks to her.
Why am I moving to FL, when I just got to NE? Well, I still don't have even a learner's permit, much less a license. The apartment's nowhere near any bus routes. So I would have no way to get to work. There's an Albertson's in walking distance, but trying to walk across the highway intersection on a snowy day sounds like a very bad idea to me. And I'd have no way to get anywhere else. I don't have fulltime hours, so I couldn't afford cab fare. I'd go nuts being so isolated.
I don't have a fulltime job, nor do I have any chance of getting benefits from my current job no matter how long I work there. I'm not in classes yet. So I'm not really giving up a lot to leave. Steph may be able to get me a job where she works, and definitely will be able to teach me to drive and help me get around until I learn. And she has pets. ^_^ It's a lot better than hibernating in Bellevue.
But I'm not entirely happy about this move.... I love that baka. I don't want to be apart that long. Not ever. Even though I know it would happen eventually because he's in the AF. Call me selfish. ::crooked smile:: I'm not entirely happy about having to figure out what to pack and what to leave - *again*. I was just starting to think about finding a local parish, and calling up the local Dems to get involved in Bellevue politics. We had started Judo lessons, but decided to quit because we're leaving so soon. Hell, I just got registered to vote here. Now I have to try to figure out when the primaries for NE and FL are, and which state I'll be in during which primary, so I know if I need to switch voter registration yet *again*.....
::sigh:: Maybe I should go rummage through our anime collection to cheer up.
Or I could wax outraged about the White Wolf lawsuit against the makers of Underworld..... Go take a look at www.penny-arcade.com for the basics. I think I'll leave my own rant til the next update. I still haven't eaten lunch.
On the one hand, where he's going is a lot better than some of the slots he could have been sent to. It's a really good job, where he'll be doing something useful, not fiddling around with the Air Pulse, feeling stale and wanting to go Bun-Bun on his co-workers. On the other hand.... it's **four months**. During the holidays, too. I was really looking forward to our first Christmas together as a couple. And going out with him somewhere for New Year's. I haven't had a boyfriend - at least, one who was in dating distance for that day - on New Year's Eve ever. He's going to be gone for his birthday, Valentine's Day, and quite possibly my birthday too. We're going to be separated only three months after we moved in together, damn it. I knew he'd have to get deployed eventually.... but.... Well, damn.... I didn't think it would come so soon. I had gotten used to the comfort and joy of having him around all the time.
It could be worse. He could be going somewhere really nasty. I could be spending those four months alone. Instead, we're closing up the apartment, and I'm going to go live with his sister Stephanie. She's a very cool girl. I haven't met her yet - probably in October, when we visit his folks for his Dad's birthday. But we've emailed each other a few times, and we talk in IMs a lot more than Tom talks to her.
Why am I moving to FL, when I just got to NE? Well, I still don't have even a learner's permit, much less a license. The apartment's nowhere near any bus routes. So I would have no way to get to work. There's an Albertson's in walking distance, but trying to walk across the highway intersection on a snowy day sounds like a very bad idea to me. And I'd have no way to get anywhere else. I don't have fulltime hours, so I couldn't afford cab fare. I'd go nuts being so isolated.
I don't have a fulltime job, nor do I have any chance of getting benefits from my current job no matter how long I work there. I'm not in classes yet. So I'm not really giving up a lot to leave. Steph may be able to get me a job where she works, and definitely will be able to teach me to drive and help me get around until I learn. And she has pets. ^_^ It's a lot better than hibernating in Bellevue.
But I'm not entirely happy about this move.... I love that baka. I don't want to be apart that long. Not ever. Even though I know it would happen eventually because he's in the AF. Call me selfish. ::crooked smile:: I'm not entirely happy about having to figure out what to pack and what to leave - *again*. I was just starting to think about finding a local parish, and calling up the local Dems to get involved in Bellevue politics. We had started Judo lessons, but decided to quit because we're leaving so soon. Hell, I just got registered to vote here. Now I have to try to figure out when the primaries for NE and FL are, and which state I'll be in during which primary, so I know if I need to switch voter registration yet *again*.....
::sigh:: Maybe I should go rummage through our anime collection to cheer up.
Or I could wax outraged about the White Wolf lawsuit against the makers of Underworld..... Go take a look at www.penny-arcade.com for the basics. I think I'll leave my own rant til the next update. I still haven't eaten lunch.
